A Routine thing

People have such varying attitudes towards the whole concept of having a routine don't you think? Or maybe it's just me thinking too much about it..

I personally have always liked having some structure and agenda to my day and sticking to a routine, although more often than not I fail i.e. make plans that I don't stick to. But I think I like it when a structure exists, even if it is forced on to me and I have to stand up to it - like say during exams. I love exam time routine - it makes you feel productive, makes you work towards short term goals and creates pressure that makes us push ourselves. I know by now anyone who is reading this will probably think I'm crazy (or that I'm a nerd and how I wish it was so), but I just like the disconnect from other important things in life when you're in the middle of exams, I like the overwhelming sense of being busy. I don't exactly know if that's justified and if that makes any sense but it is what it is.

Anyway, moving on..so as I was saying people have such varying attitudes towards their routine. The lack of it makes some people feel they're leading useless lives, not doing anything productive, not making the most of their living/breathing days, etc and the presence of it makes them feel caught up. I am actually quite undecided on the subject matter and maybe that's the way its supposed to be. But I always envy people with a routine the one's who're always engaged with something (and like it too) or required somewhere or just have the discipline to be committed to something everyday. But I may be diverting from the point here - people who are of that nature would be so even in the absence of a 'structured' routine to adhere to.

Point being, exactly how important is it to have a routine in life, some structure to our days and how valuable is it versus being free, experiencing each day as it comes and rediscovering yourself everyday. The later portion was just meant with a hint of sarcasm (I think it's crap) because I don't see that happening with me (EVER) and I speak from entirely personal (and hence limited) experiences here.

I write this post because I'm at a point where I stand unaware of the routine the days ahead in my life should and would have. This results in my mind wandering off to something that is of absolutely no relevance to arriving at a solution to my problem but as always, it is the irrelevant things that capture my attention.

With this blog the only consistent part of my routine I hope to eventually find my way to a fulfilling routine in life and meanwhile learn to rejoice the liberating lack of it.

Rock Bottom

So it seems to me that my depressing rants have subconsciously become the theme of this blog. That ain't something I appreciate and would therefore make a genuine attempt to reorient this blog and make it revert back to the random and theme-less nature it was intended to have and bring back the never found diversity I wanted it to have.

It sucks, to have posted one miserable post on a miserable subject with a miserable title in the first month of this godforsaken year. Okay, that's it - no more depressed ranting! So well, reorientation is going to be the mantra from now on so I have atleast one thing in life under control - this blog. As it is it's the only place where there is no competition, no pressure and no expectations(internal or external)so to speak and hence absolute monopoly.

So, here's to hitting rock bottom and bouncing back instead of digging in deeper.. (That was hopelessly cliched, but let's just try to be a little cheerful pseudo readers)

..and hopefully more posts too!