Dear pseudo readers, blog and myself,
This is a post driven by my uncanny need to justify and reason out everything I am doing/not doing to an external agency. It's a habit I haven't entirely been able to comprehend and frankly do not wish to either since it doesn't seem to be doing any apparent harm to anybody. Anyway, getting back to the point of why I am not writing more posts (not that my previous record and frequency of posts was somehow outstanding). So well, the reasons for the same are multiple - laziness, other areas in life that deserve more attention, etc. But strangely, the issue isn't the lack of content - but maybe the fact that there's too much of it and is not matched by the confidence, skill and will to write all of it and put it up here. Honestly, I don't want this blog to fizzle out and trust me irrespective who reads it or not, it wont.
One of the many things that I've realized after I began writing this blog is the sheer number of thoughts that come into our minds every single day (because I try to think of each one as a potential blog post) and the numerous things that I wish to say. But it also made me realize that not everything can be said, written and explained, that sometimes I fear being judged even though I know how entirely futile it is, sometimes I think of absolute nonsense that you don't think anyone would and should waste their lives reading and sometimes I wonder as to how and why it matters what I think and say.
Anyway, as I mature and become smarter (or so I like to believe), new realizations dawn on me and I now feel that I should just write whatever I feel like without much dissection, critique and analysis and hope to become better and better (in terms of what I write, in terms of the clarity and relevance of my thoughts and hopefully in terms of readers too) every single day.
Too optimistic and cheerful a stance this is for a person like me, but I think it deserves a shot. Maybe somethings in life just do :)
P.S. Shorter posts are healthier for a writer like me.
