There are moments when the frailty of everything around you overwhelms you. Does that happen to you? I know it does to me, a lot. Frailty not only of every "thing" (in terms of context/situation and even the things you believe to be tangible) that might alter in a split second or every person but also of the way you see yourself and the world.
If you are one of those who is above all of this and realize the impermanence of it all and are be able to do what truly gives you every day satisfaction, I respect you. I recognize it. I think I am far from practicing it though. Since today came as one of those days of epiphany to me (for reasons best untold), I would say that realization without action is perhaps the worst position the be in. I say this not with a sense of self pity but with a sense of disappointment. Disappointment of letting go to waste, a mind that sees and senses with impeccable clarity what matters and what doesn't, what it takes to go on everyday versus what takes to realize a true sense of self worth in life. What is it anyway?
Let me not confuse this further. The point is, how you feel is a function of ephemeral judgements and opinions and perceptions of people. These are in turn based on contexts and situations that may dramatically change. Which in turn depends on how you act, which they say emerges from what you feel or your ability to regulate the impact of what you feel on how you chose to act, the former being a function of extreme impulse sometimes.
I get a strange sense of clarity today in my head. Clarity that is both liberating and unnerving and depending on which feeling stays for longer it might drive a decision I believe could have a bit of a butterfly effect. I just wanted to make sure I kept record of the moment. And also ask the frail being crossing this piece of writing on what will they let define them - will it be frailty and the lack of belief or frailty and the existence of faith?
If you are one of those who is above all of this and realize the impermanence of it all and are be able to do what truly gives you every day satisfaction, I respect you. I recognize it. I think I am far from practicing it though. Since today came as one of those days of epiphany to me (for reasons best untold), I would say that realization without action is perhaps the worst position the be in. I say this not with a sense of self pity but with a sense of disappointment. Disappointment of letting go to waste, a mind that sees and senses with impeccable clarity what matters and what doesn't, what it takes to go on everyday versus what takes to realize a true sense of self worth in life. What is it anyway?
Let me not confuse this further. The point is, how you feel is a function of ephemeral judgements and opinions and perceptions of people. These are in turn based on contexts and situations that may dramatically change. Which in turn depends on how you act, which they say emerges from what you feel or your ability to regulate the impact of what you feel on how you chose to act, the former being a function of extreme impulse sometimes.
I get a strange sense of clarity today in my head. Clarity that is both liberating and unnerving and depending on which feeling stays for longer it might drive a decision I believe could have a bit of a butterfly effect. I just wanted to make sure I kept record of the moment. And also ask the frail being crossing this piece of writing on what will they let define them - will it be frailty and the lack of belief or frailty and the existence of faith?
