Being little.

I have so many things on my mind that I can write about that it has just turned into one big mess. So I’m posting the lyrics of a song that I recently heard and fell in love with. Its just one of those songs that aptly puts into tune what you’ve always felt.

It’s by James Morrison:

I was the one who would always jump in first
Didn't think twice to look behind
Got such a good feeling just from playing in the dirt
Once when I was little

We could build a rocket fly to the moon
Leave Tuesday morning and be back for noon
There wasn't nothing, nothing that we couldn't do
Once, when I was little

Yeah I could dream more then
Yeah I believed more then
That the world could only get better

Yeah I was free more then
I could pretend more then
That this life could only show me good times
Once, when I was little

There was a time when I trusted everyone
There was no place that I would not go
Spend a day on the hillside next to the holly mo
Oh once, when I was little

I used to feel so strong
Even when they tell me, tell me I was wrong
That I can't live in a magic world
Cause it's time for me to grow up
And I’ve got to live like the rest of them
Well, I know things have been lost

I could believe more then, I could pretend more then
That this life could only get better
I could believe more then , I could pretend more then
That this world could only show me good times
Once, when I was little

So here comes the next one, the next in line
Stay as young you can, for the longest time
Cause those days flew by
Like a breeze just passing through
Once, when I was little


This one is a song that’s happy and sad and nostalgic all at the same time. More so for those who prefer the past to the present and I think, that a lot of times, I am like one of these people. I do think every phase of life has its own share of good and bad experiences and that growing up is, well, inevitable and not all that depressing. I am 20 and there are so many things in this world I look forward to seeing and experiencing and learning. But, there are just certain things I had as a kid that I wish I’d retained, barring my fat (I was extremely overweight at one point of time; still have weight issues but not that bad). Growing up has made me know more, learn more and be less stupid. But it has also made me harbor more inhibitions, be more conscious of the world and people around me – which isn’t always a good thing and not trust my instincts as much as I used to sometime back. I don’t know how and when that change came about and I hope it’s just a phase that comes to an end soon. I know I'm being dramatic, but well that's the way I see it.

I know I am too young to say this, but sometimes, I so wish I could get my old times back.