Saying Goodbye

There are a lot of goodbyes and farewells we all face from time to time. Some bid to us, and some by us. It's difficult to say which one is the hardest. I happen to be under the influence of one kind at this point of time so just feel the need to say out loud and remember, more importantly, the feeling and the person.

Yes, no denying that goodbyes are hard. There is the bitter feeling of letting go and reminiscing the good times that the place/person brought to you - sometimes it is the convenience or the routine or your sense of comfort that is so deeply tied to them, sometimes it is the pain caused by the loss to someone you love. Letting go of some of these people (or places or set ups) leaves you feeling distraught, and a little selfish. Relationships you have with people can never be replaced and it's only seldom that you'll even find close substitutes. But the uniqueness or the special element doesn't really hit your conscience until it is time to let it go. You then have no option left but to chide yourself of the times you could have used better to stay connected. 

People change, leave and act strangely - maybe that means that you should not center your lives too much around them. Stoicism is easier preached than practiced. I have always found myself to be pretty self centered and not too attached to people/situations..maybe I am still not and am getting a sinking feeling because of the disruption that this particular goodbye would cause. Often times you just prioritize other things over maintaining the right frequency of conversations with people you love - and prioritization is a ruthless and awful task.

Anyway, just want to remember what this particular person leaving told me and taught me - to wholly give yourself to caring for someone and making their life better, may not appear as rewarding at first but can turn out to be quite a fulfilling and liberating thing to do. If your own life ever screws up badly, try removing focus from yours to someone else's and things can become much simpler to understand and do.